A New Creation

Luke 7:36-50

I am the one looked at in disdain, the criminal.
I am the pervert, the sex addict, the porn addict, the bi-sexual, the homosexual
The God hater, the cynic, the persecuter,
The agnostic, the self-made, the "better than you," the mocker

The Liar

The thief – I stole innocence, family, life, world
I lived a secret life . . . lying to family, friends, and colleagues for years
A double standard – a double life – a double mind
A split personality!

I tried changing, I tried healing myself, I tried running
I tried becoming self absorbed, I tried running deeper and deeper into my perversions,
I tried everything . . . and slowly settled
Into hatred, chaos, self-loathing, solitude.

Right where the enemy wanted me
Passed-out, drunk on my own depravity, on the edge of full destruction-
Completely incomplete, empty.

Not even then did I turn

One snowy Sunday morning, I turned
It was easy, innocent, pure
The easiest thing I’ve ever done!

I stopped, turned, and there You were!
There You had been.
There You ever will be!

As the fresh fallen snow
I was washed, I was clean . . . .
No, more than that, everything was removed – gone
As if the person I was never existed –
he was gone; no, he is gone, and I did nothing to make it so!

I am not him!
I am not him!
I am not him!

I had nothing to do but accept Your gift.
I could do nothing – and never could

Now, NOW, I am new, I am being made new . . . newer each day!
Everyday I must accept Your gift

I am not him!

Everyday I must live through You
You through me

Everyday, I still get those looks from my so-called
Brothers and Sisters, who knew of that person
Or has learned of that person, since!

I am not him!

You, You REDEEM
You blot out, You cleanse, You restore!!
I am not him!

You daily make me anew!

I am not him!
I am not him!
I am not him!

Praise God, I am not him!